ca catso fai?!? [04 Jul 2005|10:34pm] i havent updated this shit since easter....damn...myspace will do that to you. 2 | BE BRAVE

procrastinator to the extreme. [28 Mar 2005|09:33am] [ music | Norma Jean: The human face, Divine ] alright, so maybe i have strayed somewhat from the livejournal, and gone over the the side of myspace...so wat. i just spent the last 30 minuites catching up on everything i havent read yet. its not that ive forgotten you... the production is on friday adn saturday and we've only had a total of 4 weeks (including this week) to do everything. music, songs, dance, lines, stagin and blocking. thats a hell of alot to gt down in 4 weeks. so needless to say, we still need quite a bit of polish. but im spening the weekend in Mota with shae more than likely. so there will bee a nice winding down process in her house. other than that..nothing much is going on. kirk is in Las Vegas right now. hopefully hes living it up. i found out the other day that Chris (patsel) has joined the navy. and is going to boot camp soon. margaret is now in gulfport mississippi waiting to go to california, the guam, the rota (spain). i on the other hand...im just waiting for it to be june so i can go home. i havent really called people in a while...mainly because ive been so tired...and whenever i do cal, its been at a bad time or an inconvinece. i got my hair done a 2 weeks ago for those that dont already know. i have yet to take decent photos. but i will post some tonight more than likely. hmmmm. buona easter. im lucky that i brough batteries to calss today..my mp3 is runnin on empty. BE BRAVE

[24 Feb 2005|10:28am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Hawthrone Heights: Screenwriting an Apology ] its not that im lazy, its just that it take an accumulated ammount of time to come up with something thats actually worth taking the time out of my day to write about. *school *work *not much sleep *phone calls thats pretty much all i have been up to lately the tase of chaos tour was on tuesday...mannn i wanted to go. everyone that went said it was insane...but i didnt need to ask them that to figure that part out. this summer, im going to every show i possibly can....and u should too. ummm this girl, Ashely just moved here from VB. she went to salem soooo yea. awesome. someone close to my age thats from virginia that dosent listen to 50 cent...is a niceee change. she seems pretty cool. andddd im now in the porcess of another porduction. its a musical...wooohooo. and i got the solo!! so im pretty happy about that. other than that, nothing is going on. dan and i went though a pretty bad tuffle and didnt talk for a long time...even now we really dont talk that muhc, but we do hang around eachother alot. theres just no real communicaiton. dont ask wat it was about... cause i dont even really know. im now a pretty big norma jean fan. also one of amberlin, yourcodemaneis:milo, a thorn for every heart, the academy is..., and a whole bunch of other stuff. the new ap magaizine came out wiht 100 bands to check out.and being i have no life i spent the last few night roaming purevolume, myspace, and WinMx looking for stuff i could download. i sugesst u go buy it, lol. its 3.50 well spent. 4 minuites til lunch...adn theres not enough to say to fil up a minuite of the time frame...so i think ill end this...here. 1 | BE BRAVE

[02 Feb 2005|08:00pm] the reasons my retns are telling me that i prolly wont move home this summer: im unmotivated (wonder why) theyre uncomfortable wiht me staying wiht frieds and becomming a burden and "they dont see how its gunna work" BULL SHIT !!!!!!!!! itll work, they just dont want it to. fill this out, give me something else to think about. am i... - am i cute? - am i hot? - am i crazy? - am i lovable? - am i funny? - am i annoying? - am i psycho? - am i daring? - am i a good person? would you... - would you hug me? - would you miss me if i was gone? - would you kiss me? - would you make out with me? - would you listen to my problems? - would you be a good friend? - would you be my best friend? would you ever... - would you ever go out with me? - would you ever do it again if you already have? - would you ever marry me if you could? - would you ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up? - would you ever make out with me in a cemetery? - would you ever make out with me in the rain? - would you ever cuddle with me? if you could... - if you could give me a new name, it would be? - if you could do one thing with me, it would be? - if you could give me a piece of advice, it would be? - if you could kidnap me for a day, where would we go? just a few questions... - what do you love about me? - what do you hate about me? - what is my best quality? - if you could change one thing about me, what would it be? - what is your honest opinion about me? - what would you do if i sang out of tune? - what song reminds you of me? - have you ever had a dream about me? - do you think i'm a virgin? - if you just met me, how old would you guess i am? - am i huggable? - if you could give me anything, what would it be? - if you could promise me anything, what would it be? personal... - am i ugly, average, decent, good looking, beautiful, gorgeous etc.? - if you could describe me in one word, what would that word be? - when we first talked, what were your thoughts? - if you had to describe to someone who i am and what i am like, what would you tell them? - what are my faults? - what are my strengths? - do you wish we were closer? - why aren't we closer? BE BRAVE

[28 Jan 2005|09:49pm] so, last night was the grand festivities...which for myself really wasnt all too grand. it was shae and bobbys jint b-day get together. and well...things didnt go how i thought they would. it all started when bobby and dustin got the grand idea to give shae a good portion of vodka. it was shaes first time drinking and for a kid that 5 feet, and weighs in at 90 punds...its dosent take much to get e sky high. within 10 minuites bobby and sahe were gone...and well having a bit of fun bwtween the two of them. after they were done wiht they're fun shae felt the aorst of getting drunk and was vomiting all night. so, i sat wiht her wiht water, napkins, and a bucket for a majority of the evening taking care of her. which, i do not mind at all. when ur in a situation like that, u need all the help you can get. other tan that...dustin did a not very samrt thing and drank two bottles of cough medicine. and then porceded to make an ass outta himself, but hey. i really dont know why i was attracted to him. other than that...mic has his first day of work tomorrow. the united states of leland is a FANTASTIC movie. you should all go watch it. BE BRAVE

nothing much new [26 Jan 2005|08:11pm] work, school, sleep. my three most time cosuming tasks, lol. says alot dont it. i bought two new books today. one wich ive only read like 6 pages to and im quite pleased wioht it. its called, "when will jesus bring the pork chops?" by george carlin. its awesome. phil and tiff...u need to get this book, i know u will so dig it. and i got "faking it"...i dont have it next to me so i dont know who its by. but its also pretty good. theres shae/bobbys birthday party tomorrow night, being that we dont have school on friday b/c of a teacher work day. im looking foward to it, yet im having mixed feelings. mainly b/c mr. "i only like "fit" girls" is gunna be there. but whatever. (for those of u that dont know who he is...hes the ninja...i think at least mat and tiffany know who im talking about. ohhh by the way. i made the freakest relaition the other day. Amity house of horror was on the other day, and matthew kelly...sir u look just like the damn husbad. no joke, it was scary how much he looked like u. (or at least me and my lil brother thought it was) if u havent seen it, u and tiff need to rent it and watch it. as for other things.....there are no other things. "imagine two differnt commercial airliners taking long, fatal plunges directly into the ground from high altitudes. One is a British Airways plane filled with staid english diplomats and upper-calss landed gentry. The other plane is Alitalia, filled with uneducated sicilain, greek, and turkish peasants. as the two planes dive tward certian destruction, which one do you think is more likely to have the louder screaming and the more colorful praying, cursing, and blasphemy? you have one guess." hint: it isnt the british plane. when will jesus bring the pork chops : by George carlin. 2 | BE BRAVE

[19 Jan 2005|03:32pm] ok, so im back from london now. i took the day off from school today to catch up on some sleep, and do my homework. all in all it was the most excellent time. i had loads of fun, if i would move to that place ina heartbest. but to tell u the truth...home is still better. we took the underground everyday and that was just fun, lol. we went to every sight there was to see and we did loads of stuff. we went to the tower of london and saw the crown jewels. i saw the spot where queen anne bowlin was beheaded and all those other royals. and plus i saw the axe and block they were decapitated with...which was pretty creepy. we went to westminster abby, and saw big beh (the nickname for big ben that i got from senses fail). when we first got to our hotel i though it was a joke my parents were playing on us... its was this tiny room where a doulbe bed and three single beds were all shovedinto. there was a window and a door...and we thought that was all...til we saw this curtian in the doorway...at which time we noticed there was a bathroom too. i was like "fuck no" my moms face was priceless, and my dad just kida laughed and was like ok, lets put our bags down and get something to eat. now leeme make something prefectly clear, i would have been moe than comtpmt wiht this. i could have over looked the curtian and the barbie dream house beds...until i saw..... our shower....yes that was out shower. now dinner that night was very quiet..unitl me and brittany started talking about the hose...(our shower) we called the hotel the hose shack and it wasnt long after that. that we started walking around town trying to find a different hotel to stay in. now after some time of walking around and scoping guys the only hotel we could find were 350 punds a night, which is like 600 dollars. so on our very slow walk back to the hole in the wall hotel, we saw the friendly glow of a comfort inn right across the street for the hotel we were currently in. needlees to say it took about 5 minuites before we were scheduled to schek in the first thing the next day. and now...i leave you with picture time... we rode around on a double decker bus for a tour of the city, it was alot of fun. i think this is the first thing that comes to mind when ppl think of london. buckingham palace. home to the very dishy prince harry. which im not sure if u heard or not, but he got himself into a bit of trouble when i was there. he went to a formal dress party in a nazi uniform with swastika arm band and all. it didnt go over very well...i dont think alot of ppl got the joke. hehe, this store was so incredibly awesome. the name says it all. the houses there are gorgeous i actually liked the weather alot. it didnt rain once, and it wasnt really that cold...in my poinion...everyone disagreed with me. westminster abby...a place where theres nothing but royalty burried 4 inches below your feet...very beauitful..but kinda makes u aware of ur steps. this was king henrys actual armour...i think he was compensaiting for something. all and all...it was fun. if anybody ever wants to come vist, well go, lol. 4 | BE BRAVE

[12 Jan 2005|08:41pm] i know, i never update....not my fault nothing exciting ever happens. yet im updating now...so something must be happeneing, and indeed it is. im leaving for london first thing in the morning til tuesday. im going to see the used of saturday :) yessssssss. but anyways. whe i get back there will be full picture postage and a complete update. love you all. miss u. Cait 1 | BE BRAVE

[05 Jan 2005|09:03pm] [ music | young mc: bust a move ] soo, today wasnt too shaby. we all finnished our theatrical readings today, which we had to make up wiht our own pure creativity. ours is pretty funny actually, its from scene 7 ( i think) in caberett and its mainly about prostitutes, sailors, and pineapples, lol. so yea great stuff. i went with pretty to get her hair done and it looks great, im glad she likes it as much as i do. and i got my eyebrows waxxxxed. which was nice. i get my hair done next wensday, the day before i leave for london, which i just might take that day off from school. and im stokkked. but im tired...and its 9:06...and i think i just might go to bed. ni night to all. p.s. dans not talking to me b/c i apparently cant take a joke....go figure. BE BRAVE

[04 Jan 2005|08:40pm] today wasnt to shabby...but theres nothing to really write about, lol. When the shirt came off, it was all in time When a minute turned into a mile And then I broke that grin, and I cut it out And you got all turned on by the taste of your sin When I mention blue, all you thought was color When you mention drugs, all I thought was sober When your pants came off and I turned you over When you mention blue You, smile, cut it out for me this time Smile, everything is gonna be a while Keep the mask aligned Get it up in time There's a space between valleys and try and catch a vibe Make a circle square, a rectangle curve Use a smile as a noun and I think like a verb Run quick switch sides Spill the filled up canister And the room is shaking Now you're changing places, and I switched my pace, and my breathing races when you mention blue You, smile, cut it out for me this time Smile, everything is gonna be a while You, smile,cut it out for me this time Smile, everything is gonna be a while You, smile, cut out for me cut it cut it out Smile, cut it out for me cut it cut it out We cut it out Get down and stay awake Smile BE BRAVE

a unwelcomed ending. [02 Jan 2005|04:46pm] [ mood | hungry ] school starts tomorrow...and im madder than a legless ethiopian watching a dogh nut roll down a hill. ive been back and forth over this island like 12 times in the past week. we took elijah pretty much everywhere there is to go. which i dont mind at all, specailly if someone flys into visit. only 3 weeks to london, which i cant wait for. its nice, i have two vacations, so the transition back into school and work full time will be easy. theres nothing new, were going to dinner as usual tonight. we always go out to dinner now, we only eat in like 3 nights a week, its actually really nice...no dishes ;). anyways...thats all i have to type. i tried calling everyone on new years, but as usual no ones phones worked. 2 | BE BRAVE

[27 Dec 2004|09:05pm] [ mood | satisfied ] [ music | something corporate - walking by ] so thick you could cut it with a kinfe the wind was harsh and cold with the bitterness of a wicked soul headlights swivering the wind howling Andrew McMahnn with his voice kept me in comfort, singing about his cheshire cat doorstop. the ice among the cars was like a swarm of bees. when welcoming the light beauitful snowflakes, you were punished by the harsh cruelness of ice upon your cheek. the roads spinning the smell of lava rock was stong enough to douse a crowd up in the coulds our footsteps made their way. trecking against the elemnts, that were trying to hold us back. to no avail did they. the slopes were soft and cold. rosy cheeks and a runny nose eventually overcame my body. felt like home the ice eventually beat me into the bar, where i sat and conversed along with the others, planning futer trips. although the day was long, it was quick. completly satisfied i napped back down the mountian til halfway, when we reached Nicolosi. where soup, a fire place, and happy gilmore became my comfort. the ending to a prefect day. the only thing better would have been if i was accompanied by my bro, that loves the snow even more than i. the night was long, and unneventful. i was left alone because sleep was the offender that moraded brittanys head. a new chapter was unfloded in a area of my life, which i wont be shy to say it makes me smile from ear to ear. i think i can say, soon all aspects of my life should be taking a turn for the more satisfyed part. experimantaition is my fetish. and it will be the cause of many more memories and expierences to share with those back home. <3 this was a poetic tragedy. BE BRAVE

[25 Dec 2004|04:24pm] http://www.illwillpress.com/ click on no christmas for you. my christmas present to you...you will laugh your merry lil ass off. may your holiday be filled with laughter. and with this, it will. BE BRAVE

[23 Dec 2004|11:48pm] Far past these roads there is a place Where all of our precious dreams remain Someday I know I’ll find a way To keep myself from holding on. Stay awake with the sound of my voice I'm restless from the silence in the air. I want to be somewhere I can see the roads A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true I want to be where love is real And memories of distant days come to life again Inside this room, time will stand still As long as I'm not aware of changes The world outside leaves me behind by myself It shows no mercy for those who hold on. Still awake with the sound of my voice... Far past these roads there is a place Where all of our precious dreams remain Someday I know I’ll find a way To keep myself from holding on. ...I want to be somewhere I can see the roads A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true I want to be where love is real And memories of distant days come to life again merry chritmas to all. i love you. jebus loves you. get awesome presents <3 2 | BE BRAVE

[21 Dec 2004|09:56pm] my hair does some wild things when its been pulled back for...like an hour, lol. i think its kinda cool. 1 | BE BRAVE

[20 Dec 2004|08:03pm] [ music | daphne loves derby-longest story ] the rain is becoming a incolent pest if you ask me. tiring dreary overwhelming neverending boring i downloaed so much music the past few days...its incredible. loads of motion city soundtrack, daphne loves derby, appleseed cast, glassjaw, reggie and the full effect, big d and the kids table, at the drive in, aganist me, and so many others. its made my days amazing. i love learing new songs to sing at the tops of my lungs for the entire world to hear. muh elijah comes in tomorrow. excited, means that christmas is ever so much closer. i cant wait. tiffany got her package. MWHAHAHAHAAAAA i talked to everybody last night. it was awesome. i talked to tiffany, kirk and chris. i found that jessi moved bak to Arizona, and chris is haveing awesome luck in the dating department. and tiffany and i talked of what we always talk about. the little and big memories that we have and the things that are most important to us. the litle exciting/fun things that have happened.which is always the best. happy 3 months tiffy and matt dan and brittany came over to open their christmas gifts today, and it made me ever so happy to watch them do so. and now, im all typed out. the system is now DOWN You are "Bowl of Oranges". You see life to more than what most people do and you genuinely care about people. You feel art and music is the sure way of lifting your spirits. You wish others could have appreciation like you do, but, unfortunately, you are probably the only one. Which BRIGHT EYES song are you? brought to you by Quizilla 2 | BE BRAVE

[17 Dec 2004|12:21pm] yes, i know its been a long time. but, there is nothing that really goes on, that really deserves the effort put forth to type it all in here. its now winter. and im not saying that because its december. the month dosent detirmine the season in a tropical climate. the amount of rain your get detirmines the season, and its rained heavily everyday for the past week. im so sick of it lol. theres more sonw that frosty would know what to do with on the mountian, and i catn wait to go and play in it. Elijah gets here on tuesday, and it will be most fun. theres a birthday/christmas party tomorrow that im attending, should provide some good times and good laughs. im looking forward to it. my dads in chicago now, margaret graduates from boot camp on monday, and then she goes stright to a school down in Mississippi. my dads just happy b/c hell get some actuall christmas shopping done this year. im happy for that too, lol. i wonder if tiffany has gotten her package yet? BE BRAVE

[09 Dec 2004|07:59pm] being that im icredbily tired and lazy at the moment. im going to express the total and complete AWESOMENESS of my day with my conversaition with jon tobin. headfirst4urhalo (07:46:19 PM) (09/12/2004): heyy deary musicsmyonlyhope (07:46:24 PM) (09/12/2004): hey whats up headfirst4urhalo (07:46:36 PM) (09/12/2004): today was the best, lol musicsmyonlyhope (07:47:14 PM) (09/12/2004): why is that headfirst4urhalo (07:52:18 PM) (09/12/2004): all day i was like...damnnnnnnn i wish i didnt have to go to school today of all days. headfirst4urhalo (07:52:37 PM) (09/12/2004): and all blahhh, then in second period this mad crazy storm hit, the power was flickring and all that. so we go to lunch and its really not that bad outside. and we all get our lunch and were chillin in the food court, when it starts going crazy outside, plam trees were going over and this crazy cold front hit headfirst4urhalo (07:53:30 PM) (09/12/2004): and it starting hailing hardcore. and they made us get away from the windows and all that headfirst4urhalo (07:54:09 PM) (09/12/2004): then school got cancelled til the rain stoped. so we all just went and wandered the nex and commissary. a bucnh of kids bought big purple blow up dolphins b/c the door ways starting flooding . musicsmyonlyhope (07:54:30 PM) (09/12/2004): nice headfirst4urhalo (07:54:41 PM) (09/12/2004): and when they finally told us to go back to school we were on lock down, so we just went into anyclassroom that wasnt flooded or electriacl damaged headfirst4urhalo (07:54:53 PM) (09/12/2004): so then we sat around and joked and watched seinfeld then went home musicsmyonlyhope (07:55:04 PM) (09/12/2004): nicccccccce headfirst4urhalo (07:55:14 PM) (09/12/2004): yeaaa BE BRAVE

[27 Nov 2004|08:29pm] me... i love it when i strighten my hair...i konw...i have stright hair to begin with...but it has a cool effect. i love you...more than likley, lol. 5 | BE BRAVE

finally [20 Nov 2004|11:33am] [ music | I can make a mess...: the best happiness money can buy ] ok, its all over. and im actually glad. My drama preformances were on thursday and friday. which is my excuse for not writting for so long. its been... heptic...stressful..rewarding..fun..not so fun...but he was there <3 thats all that mattered. when i looked off the stage and saw him sitting there smiling. i conned people out of there money for the club. i ripped them of on cheap clues and extra ballots. it was a murder mystery. and i was the detectives assistant...that did all the work...while the detective just talked. call me Reno umm mic broke up wiht paige. and it was most sad. especailly when she came up to my locker crying b/c he gave her the ring back. which i had a little discussion about how u almost never give gifts back. its a big no no. and hurts feel8ing even more. but she is still my paige. mics first girlfried, and she will always be my sister. lets see. elijah comes in less than a month. and i cant wait. just the though of somebody comming to vist makes me beam. it nice knowing that there will be someone from home to spend time wiht and help keep company. i just wish it would happen more ofter. i got selected to go to Drama fest in Amsterdam in may. im most excited about that. should be a ton of fun. im still waiting to see if i got into creative connections. i hope i did. thats a pure shoe in for VCU. but i dont find out til the 17th of december. that one is in febuary...somewhere else in germany. london in febary. an d bittany is definitly comming. and my buddy james (www.purevolume.com/mymindsweapon)is putting together a show with some other kids for me and brit when were there. it will be most awesome. although, im upset b/c im missing senses fail by like 4 days. ohh well. i think im done... work at 4..to 7 the brittanys then home then prolly online. 1 | BE BRAVE

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